Thursday, April 26, 2012 9:32 AM
I know I'm stronger than this, I'm not supposed to cry. Sorry if I've done something you don't like. I guess we really don't understand each other well enough. 5months and 16days, we ought to understand each other well? But this isn't the case. Sigh, I really don't know what to do. You said I've forgotten a lot of stuff I wanted to tell you, but actually I did not. I still remember a lot of stuff, but I chose not to say. Today's surprise is all my fault, I shouldn't have went out late @ night to get those stuff for you, I shouldn't have planned all this last night, shouldn't have try to find means and ways to pass to you without letting you know it's me. Sorry. I failed. I'm really sick and tired of all this. Lots of things are in my mind right now, I don't know what to do. I'm going to explode soon, someone help me please? Whatever I do for you, seems to be all wrong or mistake. Sometimes I wonder why I put in so much effort, trying to make you happy. But at the end? Sigh, everything fail. I only wanted to let you solve the puzzle yourself, after you really solve it, then you will know its me and smile happily. That makes me think I've succeeded, but now, I can never see the ending. Count it on luck I guess. Bye. 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒
I still love you, my boy. 💛 no matter whatever happens, my love for you is still as strong as before. 💛
Wednesday, April 25, 2012 8:20 AM
I feel paranoid... What if you really still feel something for her? What am I going to do? Are you leaving me alone? Am I thinking too much? 😒😔😞 sighs, I want to tell you this, but in afraid you say I was just being sensitive and stuff... 😢😢😢 I think I should just keep it to myself... 😔 I feel so lousy right now, I might be smiling, but in actually not feeling good inside... 😔😞😔😞
Monday, April 23, 2012 7:23 AM
Mye is around the corner, and I can really feel like scariness. Its not even Nlevels yet... 😒 sigh, hopefully I'll be able to do well.. Don't wanna disappoint anyone. Don't know why I've got this feeling that I will flunk everything. Maybe it's just me being sensitive.... 😔😔 I'm scared, really scared... 😢 I need a hug, a long, tight and caring hug... 😞
Saturday, April 21, 2012 6:48 AM
Urgh, I just hate it whenever I see her and you talking to her. The sight of it just irks me. I just dislike her, the sight her her makes me feel like slapping her. Fuck, what's wrong with me being do sensitive. Hate myself for being like that. Im just a burden. Sorry for not telling you why I kept quiet just now. But I'm sure you knew. Sorry, I'm just not good for you, not good enough/fit to be with you. 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
I'm sorry my boy. 😔 I still love you. 💛
Saturday, April 7, 2012 5:22 AM
Awesome Good Friday @ Sentosa yesterday with besties & my boy! <3 :) Met up with my boy @ around 12, took a bus down to JP to meet the others. While waiting, had Auntie Anne and chatted till everyone was here! :) Travelled down to Vivo to get food and stuff then off to Sentosa! :) Saw Muhammad at Beach Station! HAHA! Took a tram down to Palawan Beach! After we reached, all went to change and got ready to go down to the sea to play! :D Hehehehe, opened up all the mats and then placed all our stuff and went down to the sea! Had a really fun time there! :) Piggy backing each other, splashing water, walking down to the deeper end and calling it the 'erosion park'! HAHA, all pushed ray down and starting throw sand! The funniest thing i could recall was ray bringing the big bag of Doritos down to the sea to share with Peishan & Zirong. First, the wave came, it was a small one so the bag of chips was safe. Then, the second wave got bigger, then third wave was huge and it made that whole bag of chips wet! & then sea was filled with our chips! HAHA. All had a great laugh and continued playing in the sea! Played truth or dare, then all went up except for my boy and I. We stayed in the sea a while longer together before going up for our shower. :) Hehe, just love spending quality time with my boy! <3 :) Had cup noodles after shower while waiting for the boys! :) Took some polaroids then left Sentosa at around 7+. :) Went to Vivo for dinner, was quite full so shared a meal with my boy. :) After dinner, shopped around at F21 and TOPSHOP. :) Regretted not buying that tribal top from F21. :( But my boy said he will bring me there again to get it! ^-^ hehe, i love him alot la! <3 ;) Headed home after that. :) Fun day spent with all of them! :)
I love my boy & my besties! <3 :)
